Running away

The JC route is definitely not a walk in the park. You do the most sickening thing on earth(studying) everyday and you still cannot eliminate completely the possibility of being unable to make it to a local university. A lousy A lvl cert is crap. You can't make it to a local Uni and you're going to be stuck halfway. It's antagonizing just thinking about it. I'm super lazy and a little bit stupid. I'm afraid i cannot make it. My prelim results are not up to standard at all! And i keep running away. I just can't bring myself to sit in front of my table and study! Oh my this is not going to work. I have to start burying myself in notes soooooon!