Studying makes me wonder. So many things have crossed my mind these days. I've been thinking uncontrollably about my future. It's something i hadn't really gave much thought about before.
Hmmmmm it seems like reading deep into my notes really made me mature. How is it gonna be like after i graduate and step into the real world? How could studying help??
I dun yearn for much. When i grow up, i guess it's okay if i dun have an established career, or a lavish apartment. I dun even need a car, a swimming pool under my block, a membership card to my name or anything like that. All i've ever wanted is just to be able to stay with all my friends, provide for my parents, get married, be a mom and live happily ever after!
I've always said i wanted to marry rich, be a taitai bla bla bla. haha but who doesn't??:D But of course i know this is highly unattainable. At the end of the day i'll gladly just settle for a simple life.
With great power comes great responsibility. (i guess that goes for money/affluence as well) And great responsibilty is always accompanied by great stress. I dun ever wanna feel stressed! There's some ppl who work well under stress, but i'm not one of them.
I give up easily, be it arguments, exams or even relationships. Once i can't get it, i let it go. I still remember how once i can't understand chem in sec 3 and just decided to drop the subject altogether the next day haha! So i guess the "endure all and you'll see the rainbow" stuff dun work on me. I'd rather not endure. A lvls are torturous, there's so many times i dun feel like not caring anymore. But i guess i'll just have to endure it through this time. A lvls are in three months time. It's one hurdle i'd have to cross. This, i can't give up.
Studying is sickening. I'm trying my best to motivate myself and hence this stupid post HAHA!
